So I find my back against the wall. I’m getting more paranoid everyday. I don’t know what’s worse, knowing too much or not knowing anything at all. Many times I have found things not going in my favor. Failures, mistakes seem to be a common thing to me now. And yet I can’t help but feel upset whenever things don’t work out for me.
A friend once told me, in life we have been pre programmed with the idea that with every action comes an equal reaction. Causality suggests that for everything you do there is an equivalent result. And so we go to school with the idea that if we graduate, we have a better chance on landing on a good job. We work, knowing that if we do our job well we’ll make a living or get a raise. But not everything in life has to be like that. In fact, the most essential concept in life does not adhere to the rule of causality. And so we see many people struggling with it. Love, does not follow the rules of action and reaction. At least not strictly. When you love someone, there is no guarantee that you will be loved in return. When you court someone, it does not endow the person you are courting to respond to your actions. So when you are looking for results, for responses and for reasons, don’t look for it in love. Least you’ll find the understanding it as a very daunting task. For people who get by, they immediately try to accept that Love is something that you cannot understand. It is beyond you and me. It does not conform to any norms or rules. In short do not waste your time trying to understand something that can never be understood.
And so I ask myself why invest my feelings on something that is not certain? Something that I cannot fathom or understand. The answer is simple. I do so because of hope. In life as well as in love, nothing is for certain. There is no assurance that everything will run smooth as planned. Things can go wrong. People get hurt. But it is hope that shall see you through all these trials. “It is hope that drives me through the day, and more importantly hope that sees me through the night. It is through hope, that love shall lead me back to you.”.
